Joshua ♥ Cleaver

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A HUGE THANKYOU TO EVERYONE WHO CONTINUES TO LIGHT CANDLES ETC FOR MY PRECIOUS ANGELS. LOVE TO YOU
AND YOUR ANGELS ALWAYS XXX


The only thing i can do here is speak from the heart and i apologise in advance for any upset
caused.

My so called brother Martin is Joshua's daddy and for many many reasons i've never got on with him,
to name but a few he stole jewellery from my new born son, treated my mum badly and is an alcholic
but that didn't stop me wanting my beautiful nephew to be part of my life.
Joshua's mum didn't really want her baby and often came to my house starving, having not eaten for
days. I'd make her eat a bowl of soup and bread just to get some nourishment into her.
On the 21st May i heard via a relative that Joshua had been born sleeping and although i didn't get
on with Martin i phoned him and offered my condolences, he promptly put the phone down. I then
telephoned the hospital and asked to go and see Joshua to say goodbye but Martin had already told
them to refuse me. I was in a total state of shock, i so wanted the chance to say goodbye to Joshua
and spent a very long time grieving for him because i wasn't even allowed to attend his funeral.
Through sneaky methods i eventually found where Joshua was laid to rest and visited as often as i
could, leaving teddies and flowers for him but leaving no name to identify me. On Sunday i went to
his grave again and broke down at what i found... His grave couldn't be seen for a huge conifer tree
which Martin had planted years before and i've not been able to get Joshua out of my mind since. As
if by fate my husband saw Martin today and told him how upset i've been and asked for his number. I
rang him as soon as i could tonight and was told that daddy hadn't been to Joshua's resting place
for about 5yrs. I told him that he needed to sort his son's grave out and get rid of the tree, i was
politely told to do it myself because he wasn't going there again.
Joshua darling, auntie Jan will get your grave sorted out for you sweetheart as soon as i'm able to
and i'll make it as pretty as you so deserve and that's a promise baby boy. I have never forgotten
you darling and i never will, you'll live in my heart for ever. You're safe now with your Nanna and
Grampy, they'll look after you and give you all the love you'll ever need.
Nyt nyt sleep tight my sweet little angel.
Loves and snuggles darling xxxxxx